Long post ahead with a very happy ending ❤…..On November 26th, 2016, we went through our very first major heartbreak as a married couple. We lost the first baby that we had been longing for. It was the hardest moment of my life as a woman, mother, wife, and human being. I can’t imagine it being any easier on my husband. We wept as we walked out through the doors of the hospital that night knowing we were no longer going to have a baby that following year.
The following days and weeks were a struggle. I contemplated not getting pregnant again and being content with my wonderful little boy. I was already a mom. But that would have been so selfish of me to not give my husband what he’s always wanted. So we tried again and fast forward to June 5th, 2017, and we found out we were expecting again. We didn’t share this with a lot of people because I was scared. Scared that it would happen again and that we’d have to explain our loss all over again. So we decided to keep it within our family and of course our work family since there was no way I could hide a burgeoning baby bump. There were days I wanted to share my news with the world, but fear kept me from writing it out.
Nine months have passed and we have now welcomed our beautiful baby girl. Ishika Charlotte Kumar, weighing in at 7 lbs and 19 inches was born on 2/10/18 at 10:23am. Seems as though God planned to give me a special birthday present, one we never would have expected to come on this day. We feel so blessed to finally have her with us. We have treasured every moment, kick and hiccup she gave us while she was in my belly and now we can’t wait to experience all the fun that is sure to come, especially during those sleepless nights that test every parent’s patience. All of the heartache we went through brought us to this moment. And it is what will make going through these next sleepless nights, major diaper blowouts, and inconsolable crying marathons all worth it. We love you baby girl and I’m so happy to finally have you in our lives.
Writing my life out on the pavement 
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