Writing my life out on the pavement

Have you ever wondered what you were born to do? Like what you were seriously meant to do with your life? I wonder about this ALL. THE. TIME!

I grew up the oldest of 4 children. I was your average typical kid born in the 80’s. The best decade for the brightest adults around if I don’t say so myself lol. I had a great childhood. My family was pretty big, still is. As I got older though, life wasn’t so much fun and I wasn’t so typical. I went through a lot of crap. I’ve seen therapists and all of them have stared at me in awe after I tell them what I’ve been through. And each one has asked me why I haven’t ever uttered a single word to anyone about my ordeal. Well, I guess some stories aren’t worth the drama that they’ll bring. But I’m kind of getting over that notion. Keeping everything bottled up just because I don’t want to hurt anyone else’s feelings is kinda getting old. What about my feelings? When will mine matter?

Throughout this blog, I want to try and write about my life. I’m keeping it anonymous for now because quite frankly, I’M TOO SCARED TO SEE WHAT THE TRUTH WILL PRODUCE in my life. But for those that find comfort in knowing that you’re not alone with your demons, keep reading. I’m currently seeing a therapist for my “anger issues” because I don’t know how to keep calm when the crap is about to hit the fan. I’m one of those people that can go bizerk in 10 seconds or less. Not pretty at all. But I’ve come to learn that all of this, is happening more and more because of the flashbacks I’ve been having and the stuff that’s coming back from my childhood. So if you’re interested in hearing my story and seeing how I manage myself and my past then stay tuned….

Stay grounded ~ Em